Dear God,

I'm aching and it hurts so bad. It's so hard to be strong. There's nothing anyone could have done to make me not have suicidal thoughts. These suicidal thoughts have been plaguing my mind since I first looked down from the window in my bedroom when I was 7 or eight. I thought I would go to hell if I killed myself, but I tried banging my head on the wall anyway. I saw someone die from that in a drama serial.

Lord I know I am not meant to be tormented by these thoughts and depression. I know that this life is destined for more. I release these burdens to you Lord, those that I can identify and even those that I am unaware about. Take them Lord, and make me whole. I bind these suicidal thoughts in Your name, I bind the spirit of brokenness in Your name,  I pray that you will mend the voids in my life and be my strength through all that I face.

I thank you also for giving me a friend in Yvonne. You have made her the closest friend I've ever had. It hurt so much to see her wounds so raw, I know she was hurting so bad and I don't ever want to hurt her in that manner, ever. Lord I promised her that I won't take my life, You are my strength and refuge, I know I will honor this promise with Your help.

I pray also that you would nurse her wounds that are still so raw, and help me be a friend to her in times of low and sadness. I have grown to love her so much Lord, I know this friendship is Your work, and I thank you for blessing me immensely with this relationship.

Continue to grant us strength and comfort in this time of ache, I know we will emerge victors in You.

In Christ's name,
Amen