Dear God,

I am feeling afraid. Afraid of this familiar feeling of wanting to give in to the temptations of death.

When I was a child, I had contemplated suicide countless times, but I thought that it was a sin that would banish me to hell. And I did not want to go to hell. Hence I stayed alive. God, I could have died.

Now I'm just so tired, I have grown up and I know that my soul is saved. Lord I want to give up. This burden is too much for me to bear. The depression is so painful and I ache but I cannot cry. Take this away Lord, I am so afraid to reach the point where I admit that there's nothing anyone could have done to change my fate, a foolish decision to take my own life, and hurt many others along with it. I'm sorry.

Lord please help me.

In Christ's name I pray,
Amen